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I don't have a heart for fakers who shed crocodile tears nor do I have sentimental value for emotional basted-s. I'm the devil's work of art. Nobody knows me too much to hurt me neither does anyone knows me too deep to understand me.
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I shed no tear
Deep told me on msn about Cheng leaving and the so called farewell outing ans she asked me to come. It was supposedly on the weekend but I reali did have work to do. So i told her I most prob can't and yada yada yada...she pastered me to like try ma best to go....well I kinda told her that I dun reali have that "feeling" (the friendship feeling...u noe) la and it didn't bother me.
This is wert she told me:
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:35:
tabby
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:35:
sometimes i think ur so stupid
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:36:
just because of one tiny incident, ur saying that she doesnt matter anymore
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:36:
wtfuck tabby
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:36:
i just dont get u at times
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:36:
ur ego is wayyy to big for me even to talk about it
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:37:
if ur ego is so fucking important to you, go get an island and stay in exile
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:37:
dont be around ppl
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:37:
ppl make mistakes, everyone does
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:37:
ur not great either tabby\
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:37:
u've made mistakes too
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:39:
tabby, i love u so much
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:39:
and ur soo important to me
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:39:
u really are
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:39:
i would do anything for u, u know i will
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:39:
im nt saying this to hurt u
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:39:
im just saying it to wake u up
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:39:
i've been quiet about this for long d
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:39:
i knew bout u and cheng quite long d
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:39:
but i din say anything
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:40:
i thot u need time to forgive and forget or to realise
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:40:
i tried my best to talk u thru it
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:40:
but in cheng's case, i cant srand it when u say she dont mean anything to u d
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:42:
u've known her half your life tabby
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:42:
all the things we've done together
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:42:
i know there has been rough patches and all
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:43:
but everything isnt beautiful if it doesnt have certain flaws
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:43:
how can u judge a friendship just with one minor incident
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:43:
if so, my friendship doesnt mean anything to u either
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:48:
wake up tabby
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:48:
and look around u
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:48:
she's leaving and all u can say is she doesnt mean to u
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:48:
wtfuck did she do to make u say that
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:48:
is it a huge betrayal
d. sent 09/05/2007 10:48:
did she stab u at the back ?
before anytin,I jus wana clarify, I onli got to know her (know in the sense to start reali tokin to her) in form 4 and not half ma whole life and I am not saying that I don't make mistakes...i admit i do make them...and how I do cherish friendship.
No offense la but I tot she was kinda emo...I mean it's nutin wrong.I wasn't hurt by wert deep say oso la. And sorry to say I reali can't feel anytin for her (cheng). Maybe ma ego plays a lil part in this but no, it's not ma ego dis time, it's jus that I jus can't have that feeling that kinda tingy...Cheng is nutin more then an aquaintance to me only. Even if she shed tears (well this is wert i tink) I dun tink I would have any heart to be empathetic for her. I noe wert I said is like a pain in the arse but that's the fact.
Werteva that was in the past is laid 6 feet under and I shed no tear...