Introduction
I don't have a heart for fakers who shed crocodile tears nor do I have sentimental value for emotional basted-s. I'm the devil's work of art. Nobody knows me too much to hurt me neither does anyone knows me too deep to understand me.
Blogging
I feel so dumb
I feel so god damn dumb. Pure dumb....I've been doing maths and each time when I do I get slower....much damn slower...I can't even do matrix properly...god...I feel like dying....I never felt as dumb as now....
Ma maths test results was out...I din get wert I expected...way low...and some people hu dun even enter class get much higher then me and those who asked me questions about maths scored WAY higher then me...and people like Qi Hao hu actuali play handphone behind the class and never copy notes and listen to her score almost the same marks as me! wat the hell...I never skip her class and I pay attention most of the time and I only get that kinda marks! i feel god damn dumb...when ever i try to prove to maself that I ain't dumb (by doing maths question) I feel even dumb-er....I feel like dying...
It isnt like skul that kind...I know that people hu score better then me was bcus they work much harder then me...that I can accept. And ppl like la and Lynn mmg smart arse la but they still put much more effort...and I noe if i work as hard as em I wud socore...maybe not as high as em but at least relatively close to em.so I dun feel that dumb u noe....but onli to blame maself for not working hard. But now, IT'S DIFFERENT!!! I dun wana face the fact that I AM DUMB!...well at least I feel dumb....dumbness of the highest order. Every maths that I do sure get stuck easilly and I can't find the solution!!! I can't reason things out....I FEEL SO DUMB!!!!!
The "I love maths" thing is not working either... The self-denial is killing me and maths is testing ma patience. I am gona die of dumbness...I rather fail for not working hard then to be scoring much lower then other ppl cus of ma dumbness....