Introduction
I don't have a heart for fakers who shed crocodile tears nor do I have sentimental value for emotional basted-s. I'm the devil's work of art. Nobody knows me too much to hurt me neither does anyone knows me too deep to understand me.
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Friends
I am actuali to find self-actualisation towards the topic of wert we call friends all this while and it has been reali deep in my heart this matter...
I read Sim's blog sayin that how she changed and wen I tagged I kinda like felt like that was wert I am to say of maself. I believe in this four months many things did changed...from how we think to our relationships with friends. We face our own different experiences that makes us who we are today. Yes, I do admit that I have changed so does my relatioships among friends. I know it nutin new; friends come and go, but I can't see maself as to like accept this fact. Everytime I feel that friends leave, not jus in terms of miles but also the "drifting" of the bond, I will jus shove it down tellin maself it doesn't matter, it's a natural phenomena.
I am very very envious of Malini...I remember there was once where she actuali describe wert a friend Siva is to her. I wished I had that kinda friend...or at least to maintain a good friend.
There are so many times that I just don't wana pick up the "pieces" of friendship that was left behind, and "stick" it back together because of pride and I know maself it can never last long...it will jus deter it or give it a slightly longer time. I used to trash ma pride in the name of friendship but it's not the same anymore. I learn and understand that it can't change wert was done.
Many of a time I wished so hard that friends will never leave and many of a time I thought that friends are forever. But the simple harsh fact contradicts to wert I believed in. Friends are never forever, that's the reality of life. It has left me in tears and now I am just too dry of it. I wish I could have never felt the pain of a broken friendship. It cuts so deep everytime a friend "leaves". I pretended to be numb to the pain but the fact is; no matter how i try IT STILL HURTS!!! Sometimes I wish that I had never had friends (not aquiaintence) where I need not fee hurt when they leave...
At the end of the day, it's just me and my world. I am just too tired of holdin on any longer....