Introduction
I don't have a heart for fakers who shed crocodile tears nor do I have sentimental value for emotional basted-s. I'm the devil's work of art. Nobody knows me too much to hurt me neither does anyone knows me too deep to understand me.
Blogging
one of life's regrets
I swore dat I wun go on9 again dis week but here i am, bloggin ma lungs out...hahaha
Background music: Jie's pencemaran bunyi.....Jie, I luv it to the maks.....
Anyway, nutin much to blog about....maybe have to go bek to skul to settle sum tins...Cheng if ya goin tell me wen are u goin cus if no1 go i no go d....
While I was studyin, den suddenly duno y oso ma mind terbang pigi sumwhere. I was thinkin bout ma future la and all d bla bla bla. I realise if I goin to college out of Penang dat means I can't learn ma guitar d. I mean aquistic can learn anytime I wan la but I oso wana take up bass. If i wana learn bass dat means dat I have to take up lessons and 3 months' lesson sure tak cukup wan. Benci lor! If ma parents had jus let me take up guitar instead of piano I dun think i will regret as teruk as dis.....I told em before but dey neva listened. I must fail ma piano onli dey will let me stop!!!!
Dey neva realise dat they are payin hundreds of bucks jus for me to pass a stupid piano exam! And it's not like afta I passed so many exam I can like play any piece that ppl thorw to me. Piano exams is just about memorising. Just throw me a piece equivalent to the grade I'm takin and I'm busted. Yea the pristige of passin and goin on to a higher grade will be der but it onli for the 5 minutes wen u recieve ur cert! At the end of the day, u still can't play the equivalent to the grade u are in. It gets so fustrating wen u realise dat u are not as good as wad the cert tells you! It gets even more fustrating wen u realise that u've wasted almost half of your life just collectin some toilet paper!
Well, it's not like I neva told em dat I wanted to quit and take up guitar, it's jus dat dey NEVER listen. All dey noe is:
"Wad do u noe? you are still a kid"
"den last time wen u were small dat time u always like to play with the church's piano"
I may not noe wadeva shit dey noe but at least i noe wad i wana do!
And dude,I was a toddler dat time! Kids luv stuff dat response to em and piano wad sumtin dat responded easilly to a kid!
to ma shit parents dat will never read dis:
Don't try to tell me dat d songs I listen are trunin me into ppl some rebel kid cus if u've not make me hate u in the 1st place, no matter wad pencemaran bunyi I listen to oso it wun change wad i fell bout u!
Just bcus Steph takes up piano dat doesn't mean I have to! It doesn't mean dat the whole world is takin up piano and I have to follow em. I'm different!
Wad u did to me is dat u've wasted half of my life makin me do wad was not my passion. I luved guitar and drums but u've neva given me a chance. It's not that I dun have a chance, it's just dat u refuse to give that chance to me. Now I can't turn back time and do wad I reali wanted to do! Not that I have much time oso to do wad I wanted to do now.And thanks to u I'm regrettin for the rest of my life....
FUCK off from ma face!!!!!!
-hating you for the rest of my life-