Introduction
I don't have a heart for fakers who shed crocodile tears nor do I have sentimental value for emotional basted-s. I'm the devil's work of art. Nobody knows me too much to hurt me neither does anyone knows me too deep to understand me.
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true colours
Finally, dat does it.My add maths marks are confirmed..it's 49.I tot i would change in d sense d teacher din count correctly but at last d verdict is...49. well wen i finally recieved d marks, my tears started to flow down like non-stop....luckily everyone was so obssed wif deir marks....
from d results i come to noe d true colours of a person.I realised ma friens are so kia su...esp Venn and Babi.Venn even had neglected her best frien, Sarah jus bcus of her kia su attitude.Anyway kia Su and kia Su sure click wan so Venn and babi became best of friends.
And now,Cheng has become deir gud frien since she aced in all d subs (all d results dat came out d la). Cheng is not em la...luckily.
Hey,if u've studied, say u've studied.Dun have to be a drama queen.Stop being a faker....hate fakers...
Wad has happened to d friens dat i've known.I may be innocent and not noe muc yet i still realise dat ppl have become so kia su dat dey have in a way turned into an animal.they behave and sound like one wen dey bcome too defencive.I'm sorry to use d word animal but dat's d onli word dat could describe em.
I oso realise another thing.I'm not alone.Wen I'm wif ma "click" I feel reali pressurised to lift up to their level of expectation.I tot i was d person dat was too childish,too immature but i was wrong.Der are otha ppl dat feel d tekanan oso.It's like i have to be an adult, put on a mask and blend into wad dey want.it's bout wad dey want and not wad we want.well dey din intentionally do dat but i jus feel dat way.
I prefer to mix wif otha ppl...like juniors and tution mates.Maybe is bcus dey dun have to face me everyday but i feel more comfy wif em.I am maself.I can be jus a typical kid and not a complicated 17 year old teen. Yes i admit dat many tins dat i'm immature and i have many flaws compared to ma friens.I noe most of ma jokes are not funny,I noe dey dun like me to jump around wen i hang out wif em in Gurney but dat is reali hu i am.I'm not dat type of person hu can jus sit der and do nutin.
Walkin Cheng to her bike most of d time (last time) was ma way of showin her dat she's a big che che and a frien dat i care lots...and wad do i get????....ppl gossipin dat i have feelings for her.if dat was a 6 year old kid doin dat would dey say dat d kid has feelins for her?!I mean it's an ol issue but i jus wana give an example.
and o yea...in d "click" everyone(in a way) is "ranked".the tin dat fetches the "most marks" is one's studies...den followed by popularity and social life and yada yada yada.I mean studies is important but does it actuali matter to c if dat person is a gud frien?
and F.Y.I, d "not so cool ppl", like me never get attention.I noe dat i'm d worst(it's obvious)...well bcus of ma attitude and all dat shit.I dun blame anyone for dat but i feel many a times tersisih.I never like sittin at d ping pong table cus everyone wld be tokin bout a show from astro wic i dun have or i never watch.So where do i go? i mix wif Mel or d f4 der...at least dey dun need u to be some one else.
Wen i tred to tok, rarely ppl listen.My friens always tink dat i'm jus crappin rubbish.I maybe a crapper but dat doesn't mean dat wad i say dun make sense.my tution mates never have come to dat certain extend also.
I duno...ma friens have been tellin me my flaws which i accpet it and welcome it....but dun ya tink it's time dey "revamp" the "click"?
I'm not sure isit ma own flaws or isit d other....if it's my own, why i can still blend in well in other "clicks"?why wen i go to tution wic i dun have friens i can still make new friens and join deir group? I noe to a certain extend i have ma flaws but wad a bout em?do dey have flaws as well?
From dis trials i can see ma friens true colours....
I did realise dat I'm not alone feelin tersisih in d group.....