Introduction
I don't have a heart for fakers who shed crocodile tears nor do I have sentimental value for emotional basted-s. I'm the devil's work of art. Nobody knows me too much to hurt me neither does anyone knows me too deep to understand me.
Blogging
Irwin and Gabby
Exam was like shit and i'm so ready to fail.well after a Tuesday paper, we went down for recess.Babi was like:
hu got newspaper ar? I wana catch Steve Irwin's story.
I was like hu was dat and stuff like dat (blur blur) cus i dun have astro so i duno wad was hapenin.so d hol gang explained and den onli i noe he was d crocodile hunter.He passed away cus a sting ray's tail (???wateva u call dat, can't remember) pierced tru his heart.I was sorey for him.Since d newspaper was sellin like hot cakes i decided to onli go home and read.
I din reali noe him till I read bout hin on d newspaper.All i can say is I reali take my hats off for wad he has done.he did a good job to his zoo and he was actuali livin my dream life,protecting and preserving the nature. Steve Irwin's life was my dream life ever since i went all head over heals over the enviroment. I did tot of workin in a zoo wen i grow up. Who noes dat i may try ma luck in his zoo....if mrs.Irwin accepts me into his zoo....
here comes ma love story....This is impossible.I think I'm fallin for Gabby dis time.Okay i reali i want to make dis clear.About Piggy and Crabby, it was just a distraction dat i made so dat i could forget bout ma ex but dis time it's reali different, super different.I knew Gabby bout 3 to 4 years already.We have been friens but not reali close untill bout last year like dat (or was it dis year,can't remember) Since we were close friens we often share probs wif each otha and stuff like dat.I never like had any feelings for her dat time. I'm not very sure bout ma feelings towards her.I duno isit because we became close friens or isit because I reali did like her.We do crazy stuff together wif otha ppl but we oso do serious stuff too. She was der for me wen i recieved ma 12 demirit.Dat time no feelings oso...untill recently. I feel like i'm givin the same treatment to her as how i gave to ma ex.I told maself before dat ma ex would be d 1st and d last one and i dun wana get involved again...but now I'm doin a big mistake!
one:I dun wana get involved again
two:I dun wana fall for ma gud friens
how could dis happen?I'm passin ma boder already!I dun want this to happen.I'm not sure wad I'm feeling cus:
Gabby is ma gud frien n I may have jus mistaken d feeling of gud frien
I'm so sick of all this type of stuff after ma ex punya issue
I'm already numb to feelings of such (in a way)
I maybe carin for Gabby like ma ex cus she's jus fillin d empty spaces
there are so many reasons more dat i can't describe.I don't want to face her every single day of ma life feelin guilty for havin mixed feelings for her.I jus want a pure feeling of frienship.