Introduction
I don't have a heart for fakers who shed crocodile tears nor do I have sentimental value for emotional basted-s. I'm the devil's work of art. Nobody knows me too much to hurt me neither does anyone knows me too deep to understand me.
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After exams....
Rounders maybe a good way to start the day off but after havin well a kinda pampered life durin exam.....
Der's like lots of things to catch up with,considerin dat I left everything behind for the past 18 days.I have to carry back my heavy bag again and I can't take naps in class as lessons are running as usual.That's not dat bad yet....
The depressin moments of the day started after recess time....add maths lesson was the 1st period afta recess and guess wad,exam papers were handed out which is a bad tin.All in all for my add maths, i scored onli 49 marks.well it's better den fail but for the work i put in,i htink i deserve much more....at least 60 and above.let's just average out everytin k, i lock in about 5 hours a week of add maths (minus d time used foolin around) and all i have was onli 49.Yi Wen got 50 marks!Fine put it as same marks as d difference was onli 1 mark.I mean,I believe I did more work on add maths compared to her and she dun take add maths tution. I'm not sayin dat she's bad or a noob or wad so eva.Wen we were about to have our paper one, we did sat togather,me,sarah and yi wen listenin to Atria and Lynn's "teachin".Among me sarah and Yi Wen, i think rite I kinda noe more den dey did (not tryin to show off here).Well I expected to do better den Yi Wen dis time.
I'm not makin YW as ma compatitor or netin like dat but i'm jus tryin to see where i stand.YW is ma gud frien and i oso want d best for ma frien oso.
Yes i admit dat der's a bit of jealousy here but i just dun get it.how come she din work as muc as me and yet i get d same results as her....this has bin happenin a lot of times....i tot dat maybe I din put as muc work as her but dis is so obvious dat i did much more work.Honestly I'm super duper dissapointed in ma marks.If i din study and i fail or even get marks like dis, well i have nutin to say but to blame maself.Now, i can't simply see why i deserve dis kinda of marks.It seems like the works i put in can't change wad it is.
The next pissin part is d stupiak Soorya....She's a .....duno wad to say oso.I think she's havin a major manual pause.she's crazy man.Man, I'm so fuckin pissed by her.
"gurls,languague is not important in moral paper"
dude guess wad she said today wen i wen told her sumtin bout moral in mixed up bm and eng...well mostly eng...
"i heard dat u all have languague probs in bm.speak to me in proper bm"
wat's ur prob u bloody pross????!!!!ya a selfish asshole tha's tryin to be a complicated "amor kau"....red hair dog.shit u la man....
after d results pressure,here comes d peer pressure.....
everyone is tokin bout deir results and as I'm in Science 1,passing is not wat d ppl der tok about,dey tok about A1-s!!!!!
everywhrere i go everyone(majority) would be tokin bout...
"i hope i can get A1, I hope i can get A1"
Do dey actuali realise dat tokin bout A1 is jus pressurisin?
I may sound selfish here.
"wen i can't get an A1 no one is supposed to tok bout A1....."
I'm not sayin dat....I jus dun feel fit in wen ppl tok bout A1-s.So,it's either i hear em tokin bout A1-s or just die of bordem in class.
I duno if it's me or I've jus given up hopes....
I feel everytin becomes so hectic after exam...hiaz....beta get ready for more depression....
During exam:pressure to study and to do well....well,to at least pass
After exam:depression of exam results and have to cope wif skul activities
which is worse????