Introduction
I don't have a heart for fakers who shed crocodile tears nor do I have sentimental value for emotional basted-s. I'm the devil's work of art. Nobody knows me too much to hurt me neither does anyone knows me too deep to understand me.
Blogging
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background music:good charlotte's album (fav album for now)
it's been a long time since i've blogged (too depressed to blog)...anyway about the kanages issue the thing is already over and i dun intend to tok bout this any longer. Bout ma friens, i'll worry bout that tomorrow.
i had a long chat wif ma ex on the phone jus nw (ma dad's gona kill me). i jus realise muc more things bout her.She may sound at times a jual mahal but she dun reali realise it.(dat's wad i found out).she may mean one thing but ppl take it as another cus she reali sound tat way tou.
I oso got to noe bout her family backgorund. Her parents divorced and life was kinda hard on her...wif all d prefect tingy and the pressure to perform.I can't reali blame her for all the things she did to me (fustrating ones). Now i realise her background i intend to shower her wif more love as this type of ppl deserve more luv den d rest (jus lik KYLA).No one reali blame her for all her flaws.
She broke down on staturday.I was so damn heart broken to hear that. I noe dat she's reali pressurised and i will give her my fullest support.The onli thing i noe i could do is to help her out in her work.I was in a way happie as she told me tat she wanted to call me wen she broke down but scared taht i had tution.At least i was in her mind in a way. i was so heart broken for her.If i could i wish that all that did not happen to her.
I hope i could protect her but i can't protect her for long.The onli thing i could do now is to prepare her to face the world wifout me as i'm leaving. I'm not tryin to say she needs me and i'm dat important to her.The "protection" that i've given her is like in the form of completing her work for her and lik try ma best to keep her away from criticism of ppl bout her.I noe dat she has to stand up and it reali hurts to have her feel confused and sad wen i tell and teach her wad she shld(not dat i'm damn gud) according to the critics i recieved bout her.i try to have things work out well for her and dat's d best i could do.