Introduction
I don't have a heart for fakers who shed crocodile tears nor do I have sentimental value for emotional basted-s. I'm the devil's work of art. Nobody knows me too much to hurt me neither does anyone knows me too deep to understand me.
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fustrated
i't reali fustrating at most times wen u reali do sumtin 4 ur loved one and dey are not responding like how u wanted.yea i noe already noe dat dey ain't gonna respond the way i want it but....
it bout ma ex (again!i noe...bt i can't seem to stop bloggin bout her) yea i can say i did a number of tins for her considerin a lazy pig like me dat wil neva do any xtra work unless it brong profit to me...i bet u wana noe...okay...what happpened....
nutin reali happened, it's jus d emotions that had been built up. I kept remaining postitive even she din response like....
wen she's happie i'm happie
i dun wan her to feel sad
u jsu wait and c...so on...
d fact is i tdoesn't mean dat wen she's happie i'm happie....i mean many ppl would say dat bout their loved ones but it's reali fustratin u noe. it is never an always dat wen ur loved ones are happie,u are hapie...it mayb most of the times but it's isn't always true.
i dun wan her to fel sad...rite...at times i reali wanted her to feel sad...y? so dat i could be by her side to comfort her...but wen she's sad she wun run to me oso la...haiz....i wun purposely wana make her sad la.....
just wait and c...rite...i've bin waitin for like close to a yer adey but i get bek nutin....myb jus a thanx and a muacks(on msn or sms)....bside dat nutin d....dat oso wen i finish her wrok for her or else we have nutin to tok bout d...
well honestly i reali want her back (i'm reali xpectin too muc man) i need her so much in ma life...i do many tins for her cs i reali wana make her kam tung( wic i noe dat it wun happen) i noe i'm puttin fake hope on maself by doin all dis but wat can i do...facing realitiy is such a miserable tin...and i would not have joined public speakin(interclass) if it was not for her...i'm tryin to put the fake hopes in a reproductive way but it's reali fustrating...i'm gonna leave skul and i dun wana loose her....