Introduction
I don't have a heart for fakers who shed crocodile tears nor do I have sentimental value for emotional basted-s. I'm the devil's work of art. Nobody knows me too much to hurt me neither does anyone knows me too deep to understand me.
Blogging
bahas
i'm not reali in a mood to blog but i'm jus doin it to keep track of ma record....so it wun b a reali detailed one for now...
bahas(interclass) jus happened not long ago(1st match) and we lost to the "goverment"(it was ala parliment).it was about sex education in skul and we were opposin it...we were kinda lousy but we were definitley better den the "goverment"...even their class students supported us...
i made a big fuss over it and demanded an explaination from the judges tru ma bahas teacher.Yea i noe dat it was't some big competition but as far as i noe we deserve to win! If we did not deserve it den i wun even say a single shit!!!
i made ma claim over the bahas tin and was very mad over dis...but venn lynn and cheng did not agree wif it...esp cheng...she gave me a piece of her mind...to them we noe dat we won in our hearts is gud enuf,as long as der was an improvement it was enuf. Sorry but dis is not me.
Yes ma intentions to join the bahas was jus to improve ma confidence in tokin in public and all onli but tins change durin the debate. Durin the debate,i felt that we were on the winnin side,bout 60% .at that moment i felt that victory was so close to my hand.When i was presentin and posin P.O.I,i felt authority and fame in my hands.I realised that the power to convince people was to great and d feelin of how ppl feel inferior,no confidence wen dey are beneath ur hands was so great.Call me power and fame crazy but i luv dat feelin and i din want to loose dat. I dunno wat i'm turnin but d bahas tingy reali unleashed teh feelin of bein the "man" and bein so berpengaruh...all of a sudden d tin was taken away
i duno bt i'm feelin dat if i keep on goin lik dis i'm gonna b a power crazy animal....but is nt important anymore...